Thursday, 24 April 2014

Day 3: Your first love.

sigh. i'm going to take a deep breath before writing anything about this. I want to give a cliché in this tanda tanya. mungkin?HAHA


YES. i have but come one. IT something yang kau dah lupakan. come one. move on.


this is serius confession kan. just be cool with it.
Emergency Couple yang baru-baru ni aku tengok. and ada satu part conversation tu yang menarik minat aku. well you know emergency couple, satu cerita tentang perkahwinan muda and tapi dorang bercerai. banyak lah faktor. faktor persekitaran dan juga usia muda. they not manage to take the responsibility and understanding. then bercerai. And time break tu masing2 work hard and the exhusband and exwife became a doctor. both of them. and berjumpa balik lepas masing2 berjaya and work at the same hospital. awkward kan. tapi tu lah you have to move on. but later they realized that something that are over but actually not over yet. then they manage to get back after alot and alot thought. ingat the second mistake is big error. yeah. it stick to this prinsip maybe. eh melalut pulak tengok sendiri lah
oke sambung. oh jin hyo berlakon tau

she console her sister. sebab her sister tu dah berkahwin but you know lidah lagikan tergigit. why this serius mood ha ? HAHA

in the middle of conversation, she ask her sister 'what do you like about kwang soo (in law)?'

her sister replied 'his appearance'

then song jin hyo cakap 'then you must trust him and pegang satu benda yang kau suka pasal dia. don't complain about this and that. dia kurang itu and ini. tapi tengok kepada kelebihan yang satu tu je. even after 50 years then you will have confidence on him because of this thing.'


Jin-ae asks what other advice jin hyo has to offer, but she replies that there is no more. men are simple creatures, and that her advice is enough to provide for 50 years of marital harmony


i'm not a good person lah for consoling someone yang dah breakout. tapi kalau dah xboleh nak move on and you thing there is smaller thing called love still exist why not ?

after all the first love paling susah nak lupakan. entry ni aku pernah tulis dan niat bukan nak perli sape2 pun and aku dia dan kamu ni just inner monolog


do I ever have boyfriend? HAHA



do you ever had boyfriend at 22 years old. really?


minat memang lah ada tapi nak share something

mahal kan cinta mu. no? love after marriage is sweeter. no ?
but I do support taaruf . peace

that all. thank you

Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name.

my passionate toward my blog and could not stop from writing on it. HAHA laughing

oke continue to second day of the blog challenge.
desktop life. seem boring. no? yae it is boring and I admitted it but I could not help it. aku xleh berfikir untuk tulis satu tajuk yang adorable, yet beautiful and fit as girl's blog. heh tajuk dah macam robot-robot mak jemah

oh ya. teazelsquuze.blogspot. it is just the name of flower. squuze adalah sesuatu yang aku tambah untuk nampak cliché. haha

akan diusahakan. think again untuk tajuk blog yang best. till meet again :)

Wednesday, 23 April 2014

Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts.


today the first day kan. ok I will try my best to find what interesting. mungkin yang akan memuaskan hati aku and will compare 1/ 2 years later or further

nama Siti Asiah binti Jamaludin. I dont have confident in my name. to tell the truth. dan orang akan sentiasa tanya what the meaning. helllo nama awak cantik sangat kerrr? sampaikan ada yang tanya nama aku tu pun nama sendiri pun xada makna. first of all  nama aku adalah sama dengan nama isteri firaun yang baik hati. and of course aku pun pun baik hati juga. you have to find out more about me. sambung balik confident aku menaik lepas result SPM keluar. bias kan. haha. oke aku pernah consider untuk guna Siti or As as nickname. nick laa sannggggat. haha. tapi aku rasa Asiah is more niccce.

next fact: sebenarnya aku cari and put in 30 days blog challenge dah dekat setahun. tapi today baru the FIRST day. haha.

aku tend untuk refer blog yang best . i means dari segi bahasa dan susunan untuk hasilkan entry yang best kat blog aku. best laaa sanggat tapi yea. me kan malas untuk menulis, menaip . sometime google translate juga untuk tengok betul ke tidak dari segi bahasa nya. tapi kadang2 tu fail juga walaupun guna google translate next

aku suka makan terung dan sambal kentang. the fact yang aku jumpa terung ni ada satu chemical tu boleh mencegah satu jenis cancer. mencegah oke bukan boleh kau terlindung terus. after all kita mampu berusaha kan. dan aku ada bagi tahu kawan aku. terus dia suka terung dan mengalah kan aku pulak. habis lah semua yang baca blog aku suka terung. lagi satu tekstur terung yang lembut tu buat ko rasa nak kungah2 dengan tenang. paham? satu lagi buah betik yummy. fit my appetite

well aku memilih sikit pasal makan ni. aku tak suka bubur kacang, buah mata kucing xperlulah aku senaraikan dekat sini. muak pulak. tapi habit aku ni pelik sikit. ketam dan sotong never match in my stomach. tak tahu lah bergaduh ke apa dalam perut aku. dulu primary until secondary school I hate sotong so much. sampai tengok sotong pun aku meluat. xsentuh langsung. ketam oke je aku enjoy them. tapi after that bila rasa sotong waa best la. SEMENJAK tu aku aku xsentuh ketam. my taste bud xboleh nak rasa ketam. ketam tu rasa macam bad taste la.

next. deria bau aku not great as my mum. I'm not inherit well from my mum.

aku underweight kot. yang aku perhatikan dari from 5 until now. graf berat aku makin menurun. klo dulu 43 kg then 42, 41 and now 40. benda ni bukan lah mengembirakan pun. first aku teringin nak derma darah kot. tapi disebabkan underweight aku xleh derma. tak pelah nawaitu dah ada kan. second underweight kot

next aku love my skin very much kot. xkisah lah korang nak kata apa. oke ada dua benda nak cakap 1. aku tend untuk clean sampai balar-balar and merah2 tangan aku sebab nak clean all dead cell semua tu. sampai skin reaction and inflammation. ke sebab histamine dalam body aku yang tinggi 2. I cant put losion put calf. skin reaction ada lah. bukan mencantik kan tapi lagi teruk.

kuku. aku prefer ketip kuku yang kecik dari ketip kuku yang besar. first senang nak bentuk second aku senag nak pegang. kadang2 macam dah ODC dah. aku ketip kuku sampai aku puas hati. dan akan ada kuku yang aku rasa xpuas hati sebab ak potong xcantik I means bentuk. aku akan puas hati bila it start growing dan nampak dah oke xde dah ketidakseimbangan tu. paham?

oh ya aku anak sulung dari 5 siblings. I'm kak long and my neighbour,tok tokwan aku panggil kak long. perlu ke tulis ?

I am afraid to say but first and second daughter from the family NEVER get along. me and my sister. and yet aku sentiasa berusaha untuk get along. careful yea second daughter from what family you are. mesti rasa nak berselisih faham. mudah nak rasa panas hati. sikit punya salah pun rasa nak aishh sebab ko anak kedua aku xngam ngan kau. gitu.tapi aku sentiasa berbaik sangka. haruslah :)

aku klo tengok drama aku tend untuk tengok laju2 dengan harapan dapat tengok jalan cerita and habis cepat. then aku boleh buat kerja lain dengan tenang. aku xada masa banyak pon. buat macam tu aku harap dapat save lebih banyak masa. And aku hate drama sebab boleh buat aku addicted

banyak lagi ke. hmpp aku minat giler dengan Fahrin Ahmad. except when he doing the iklan ali cafe HAHA
tapi until dia kata he looking for future wife yang teacher-to-be or already-teacher terus xminat terus ku keciwa HAHA sudah klo bercakap tentang artis yang aku minat esok pun tak habis terus sambung orang yang aku minat dari standard 5 until now sampai esok lusa tak habis

haha . bercakap tentang cikgu. cita-cita aku dulu bukan lah yang kos ak belajar sekarang. memang cita2 aku cikgu ingat lagi cerita Kelas Malam. ingat lagi yang muttu sami entah nama nya berlakon. terus jatuh cinta kpd kerjaya cikgu. tapi looong ago kan. I here and here I am.

i rarely think simple. sampaikan aku akan stop dan think yang aku perlukan simple thinking and take easy. penulisan pun.

i think make mistake is the way to learn. but not on the same mistake. twice is error and third is unaccepted

recent picture.
this one from raya. bukan recent juga lah. bulan lepas got involve dengan kawad hari ulang tahun pertahanan awam oleh kor sispa so sekarang bukanlah masa yang tepat untuk post recent picture kan maka terimalah hihi




pain in my chest

this post gonna long story. perhaps I should change the profile or maybe change the blog address so people that know me won't feel hurt or know how I feel. maybe I hold it too long time and I feel want to express it like a burst of bomb. or it is too excessive and hyperbola. what ever.

holding back.
holding back. I still hope that she would realized what day that has pass. yes I'm crying while writing this and I still hope she would realized. No I still hope. mungkin la kalau tak pun tahun depan masih ada. tak. ak dah maafkan dah pun. but the truth aku xleh terima. she is my friend after all. my close friend.
i even scroll and scroll her friend profile fb pun. I just want to tell you. I miss you

I afraid she hole revenge on me. after all I'm not a good friend pun. Dan xsenang di buat kawan pun :(

hardership.
yea. ak pass the hard time. but the coming one i more tough than this. I afraid. and just have to find the strength right
- aku rasa setiap kali aku berada dalam situasi tu the thing get harder on me. setiap kali. I feel that aku patut wake up. holding back again. find the strenght. yea it is hard. feel like it JUST ME is being put in that situation. always me. aku tak pernah salah kan takdir pun. mungkin takdir aku. manusia after all. asyik rasa nak merungut walaupun ko tak kan rasa hardership orang lain. sebab ko not in their shoes.
yea I put the blame on me. YOU also can the blame on me. emotional again

rasa nak marah kat semua orang. yea I holding back again. always holding back. cry again. get better and strong my heart.
like weekend lepas. plug bilik aku semua xleh on. tahu lah kan bila xleh on thing get harder. xleh on laptop hence xleh buat report. iron baju semua masalah. i'm and roomate dalam masalah tu. i'm the one.
after all the plug okay after sunday :(

time tu kau rasa macam nak lempang semua orang. and people around you given hard time also. rasa nak lempang lagi sekali

tu je lah td macam banyak je nak di tulis . after all aku mintak maaf lah klo terasa and i'm okay. I pendam lama dan baru ada masa nak tulis. yea. busy . okay then and see you soon